| Distance and Time- Alicia Keys |
[Dec. 13th, 2009|11:09 pm] |
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You are always on my mind
all I do is count the days
where are you now?
I know I never let you down
I will never go away
I really wish that you'd stay but what can we do
all the days that you've been gone I dreamed about you
and I anticipate the day that you will come home, home, home
No matter how far you are
no matter how long it takes him
through distance and time
I'll be waiting
and if you have to walk a million miles
I'll wait a million days to see you smile
distance and time, I'll be waiting
distance and time, I'll be waiting
will you take a train, to meet me where I am
are you on your way?
I will never do anything to hurt you
I'll never live without you
I really wish that you would stay but what can we do
All the days that you've been gone I dreamed about you
and I anticipate the day that you will come home, home, home
no matter how far you are
no matter how long it takes him
distance and time,I'll be waiting
And if you have to walk a million miles
I'll wait a million days to see you smile
distance and time
I'll be waiting |
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| "We're going to get through this like we always do.." |
[Dec. 12th, 2009|12:49 pm] |
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On my way to my final this morning I stopped by the Parking Spot to get a sandwich, bluebook, and expresso.. When the guy in front of me asks the cashier how he was he looked at him and said, "that question is irrelevant to this transaction". LMAO! That made my day.
I'm feeling better.. only one final left.. party's tonight.. and I'm stoked! Last night I finally ate something for the first time in two days. Bryan, Alex, and I all went to Taiwan! Oh memories of Ariel! It was bueno but not the best idea after recovering from a stomach bug, make a note of that. Afterward we kidnapped Bryan and took him to Wal-Mart to shop for party supplies. Poor guy, we went in to get pizza, forks, and cups and we didn't leave for a couple hours. He didn't understand the concept of shopping, aimlessly looking at things we have no intentions of buying. lol. Right now I just got done with my Anthropological Theory final and I'm exhausted. ----> time out <------
So the other day I was walking to class when I ran into a friend and started blabbing about life and whatnot... I ended up being 5ish minutes late to class and I thought, no big deal the teacher was only covering the format of the final exam and I already knew what it was going to be like. The next day I went in to take a makeup exam and the teacher hands me a slip of paper with 10 indentifications on it and said to write 10 essays over the topics. I had prepared for the test like the normal exams- prepared 4 long essays and studied the material for a MC part. I was shocked when I got the promt and I asked her if she had covered what the makeup exams were going to be like in class. She said she had in the first 5 minutes of the last class! grrr. So I took the test and B.S.ed my way through all ten essays (even added an eleventh just for good measure) and handed it in with my head. held. (not so) high. I was so bummed I hadn't prepared for that test, I went on complaining to Alex and Bryan about how I was hoping for a C and I was pissed at myself for not double checking the format after class. BUT today before the final the teacher handed back the exams and I made a 94.... WHAT KIND OF LUC K IS THAT?!
----->time in<------ So I'm thinking about taking a nap since I only got about 4 hours of decent sleep. Maybe like an hour? Alex wants me to go with her to chop down a tree so she can take it back to Texas with her (since everyone knows they don't have trees in Texas lol). She wants to go to an actual tree farm but I'm thinking we should borrow some of our dude friends from Farmhouse and we head out to our backyard, aka the Ozark mountains, to chop one down Paul Bunyan style. :) After that we have to start decorating for our party and make the lasagna and pizza and cupcakes. Around 6 I have to meet up with Bryan to go hide the clues for the riddle scavenger hunt... and then the party starts when I get back. Got my wine in tow and I'm ready to go... :p |
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| "You're a major part of my life" |
[Dec. 10th, 2009|11:30 pm] |
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I so tired of being sick! I woke up this morning at 6am puking and its continued all day. I just want to eat and be able to sleep decently. Finals are going to commence whether or not I'm well... ugh. I just wish TJ were here to take care of me. ;( |
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| "You have been weighed, you have been measured, and you have been found wanting..." |
[Dec. 10th, 2009|02:10 am] |
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So the semester is coming to an end. Bittersweet. I would say this has been the greatest semester yet and I'm sad to see it go, but I'm very excited about next year and all of the memories that are waiting to be had. I only have two finals left and then it's goodbye 2009 and hello 2010. :) I am so excited for Saturday, my friends and I are having a huge Christmas celebration to commemorate the end of the semester. Bryan and I decided that we want to make a riddle scavenger hunt around campus so tonight we sat around and made clues. WE ARE SO STINKIN CLEVER IT HURTS. :p After the team scavenger hunt we're planning on have a lasagna dinner and wine secret santa. Chloe always comes up with the best ideas when she is procrastinating. lol. I'm so excited!
As of right now I'm not sure about my Italy plans. I was hoping to leave in less than a week but there are money issues and consequently we don't have a ticket. I'm trying not to think about the scenario where I don't spend Christmas with TJ, it hurts. I want to be there with him more than anywhere else in the world, I miss him so bad. If I don't see him over Christmas break then I'm not sure when the next time I will see him will be, maybe next May, another 6 months? Like I said, I'm trying to stay optimistic, where there is a will there is a way, right? It just makes me sad.
The last couple of days I'd say I have dropped the ball. I had a twenty page paper due Monday, a Twelve page paper due on Tuesday, and then a make-up essay exam today. Needless to say I'm burnt out and so ready for a break. I don't know why, but an overwhelming sense of unmotivation has plagued me lately. Neither of my papers were up to par with my normal writtings and the test didn't go as well as I had hoped. The funny thing is, I don't really seem to care. Senioritis? TJ is trying to encourage me to pull through and finish strong but I'm just tired and ready for school and its tedious work to be over with. I just need to SUCK IT UP AND FINISH STRONG.... ugh. |
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| "It grows!......" |
[Dec. 5th, 2009|12:15 am] |
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So... Alex and I are standing in Victorias Secret contemplating the many fragrances when about eight little junior high kids walk in the doors; 5 girls and 3 boys. They start gallavanting around the store and I deduced that it was beyond time to leave. As we're leaving I jokingly say quite loudly, "Don't have sex until you're older" and this little boy turns to me and says "alright" and smirks because he doesn't think I meant for him to actually hear it. LMFAO :)
Tonight Alex stole me away from my homework to go see Brothers at Fiesta Square. The movie was good, emotional, really intense and the ending was fairly ambiguous, but overall it was a well acted and intriguing movie. It left you wondering though, what would you do for your family. Would you kill for them?
I think livejournal is going to have to be put on hold this next week, my schedule is looking pretty gloomy. I have a 20 page paper due on Monday, a 10 Page paper due on Tuesday, and a final on Wednesday, Saturday, and next Tuesday. Hopefully I can get in the zone and finish the semester strong. It's so close to the end... I.... think..... I..... can...... make...... it..... |
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| Decemburrrr* |
[Dec. 1st, 2009|02:06 pm] |
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I can't believe that it is already December, wow. It's been almost four months since I left Italy and it's already time to go visit again. I'm getting pretty nervous about leaving, we still don't have a ticket and it's only 16 days until I plan on jetting out. Hopefully everything will work out and I will get there safe and be able to see my wonderful man again. <3 There is no other place or person I'd rather spend the holidays with, I'm just so excited.
The last couple of day I've felt really down. I think it is just the stress of finals and papers and whatnot that piles up the last couple of weeks of school. I finally got to talk to TJ yesterday though and he made me feel a lot better. It's strange, but it seems that he directly affects my mood at times. If I haven't heard from him in a few days I get irritated and upset, I don't know what it is but I can't even go without talking to him, I just need him. Vulnerability. :( But yesterday was really nice, we talked for about 4 hours, 3 on web cam and 1 on messenger. <3 I wish our schedules and internet connection would allow that to happen more often. The long distance would seem a little less painful if that were the case. But I can't complain, I'm going to be seeing him soon and then it's only one or two more long stretches before we are together for good. I'm hoping by this time next year that we will be together, happy. I'm just so ready... I love him so much. |
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| In my whole life... |
[Nov. 28th, 2009|10:53 pm] |
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...I've never felt like shooting someone, until tonight. I'm pretty sure I'm not alone in this, but I'm HATING Alex Tejada right now. But I'm proud of Mr. Mallett, at least the boy can throw a ball. inconsistantly, but in the clutch. At least we're going to a bowl game... Go Hogs. :)
I'm finally back to Fayetteville. Emphasis on the finally. While I would love to reminisce about the oh so charming and delightful Thanksgiving with the morbidly skinny people (*cough*) I'd rather not make that something to remember. I ate way too much, worked out way too little, got about half as much sleep as I was hoping, and was invisible for most of the time because of a small, round, cuddly, bundling ball of joy (*party of one*), BUT on the flip side, I did get in some awesome QT with the baby sis, read about half of my book, and got to drink free egg nog. The negative mood and sarcasm can be blamed on the sleep deprivation. I'm off to bed... before I track down Tejada in the swamp lands and take off his legs. |
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| "Sista Anderson" |
[Nov. 23rd, 2009|12:17 am] |
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I don't know how I ended up with such unbelievable best friends, seriously. I don't think I have ever in my life laughed as hard as I did tonight in Village Inn. I literally thought we were going to get thrown out. "ROY!" LMAO. This weekend was wonderful, Devil's Den, Dickson, New Moon, hot tub, I wish time didn't fly as fast as it does when I'm with the people I love. Ugh. The only thing that would make my life better is if TJ were here with me. One day soon... As much as I would love to write about my glorious weekend with the besties, I'm not feeling very well and I'm sleep deprived. I'm sure I'll remember the best parts even if I don't reminisce on livejournal. LOVE <3 |
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| what what?! |
[Nov. 19th, 2009|02:14 am] |
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I ran my first ever 5k tonight! I'm so excited, I'm working my way up. :) Marathon here I come....slowly. lol
I took this picture of the treadmill display screen about 20 seconds after I finished my 5K... I was just so proud, 29 minutes! Notice how the speed is now on 2mph because I was so tired and ready to walk. :)
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| Easy, Breezy, Beautiful |
[Nov. 16th, 2009|08:17 pm] |
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This weekend was wonderful, simply wonderful. Dane Cook and Little Rock, Circle of Death and Dickson St, jogging in Bella Vista, and no homework! Bliss. This week should go by fairly fast, only one test and research assignment. :) I can't wait for the weekend, ASHLIE IS COMING HOME!
My only picture of us at the Dane Cook show because I forgot to buy a memory card for my new camera. BRILLIANT! lol At least Alex got some awesome pictures of her 'future husband'.... ALSO..
I got my 'hair did' today, I'm a brunette! (sort of) I decided to go darker for winter, love it! Yay for narcissism---->
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| Dear weekend, can you please stay forever? |
[Nov. 13th, 2009|01:29 am] |
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I AM SO FREAKEN EXCITED!!!! Tomorrow is our road trip to Little Rock to see DANE COOK and then Saturday is game day and after party with the amigos! I love the weekends! Why do the weekdays with tests and research papers have to interfere with the fun?! I mean, isn't college about fiestas and friends not studying and stress???? ;p hehe
Stay tuned for pics of the upcoming epic weekend! (provided in part by my wonderful, amazing, handsome fiance who bought me the sexy pearl camera... LOVE!) |
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| "You know they're whistling at me!" -Chloe |
[Nov. 11th, 2009|10:55 pm] |
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I feel so blessed. This year has truly flown by and I owe it all to my wonderful, amazing, fantastic, crazy friends whom I love and adore. God has given me the most incredible people to share my life with. Some of my friends are just like me in every way while some couldn't be more opposite, either way there is never a dull moment between us. I know that no matter the day, bad occasion or good, they will be here for me- to hug me, listen to my problems or joys or "story buzzes", laugh with me, share a tear, go jogging or play tennis or drink a glass of wine. You're "the ying to my yang". I'm just so lucky. Part of me never wants to grow up, like the Peter Pan mentality. I could stay in this part of my life forever, right here with my amazing friends. :) But the other part of me is itching to grow up and get out on my own and figure out what is out there for me. It sucks to think about where we all are going to be once this year is over, but I know deep down that they will always be in my heart and there for me no matter where we all end up. I just love them so much. I truly believe that having TJ away from me through my college life has led to stronger friendships and bonds. I have had to rely on my girls instead of my boyfriend to help me through the good and bad. Looking back I see that I am lucky it played out like this. I am blessed, truly. :)
I've always had that one friend, the one I call my bestie and bffl, the one and only Ashlie A. She gets me and is there for me and I never thought that I'd find another like her. I was wrong. God blessed me with someone here that is just incredible in every way. My 'twin' so we say. :) I'm just so excited about life, everyday is more exciting and I'm never alone. I really believe I will miss this part of my life one day, I will look back and reminisce about the times with me and my girls and want to relive 22 forever...
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| "I miss you I miss you I really want to kiss you but I can't..." |
[Nov. 10th, 2009|02:09 pm] |
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I have been missing TJ so terribly lately. I just wish he were here enjoying my friends and family along with me. </3 It's the small things like sharing a kiss, snuggling up in a movie, laughing together, date nights, etc. I've pretty up made up my mind, I have to see him over Christmas. I'm just so tired of missing him. I love him so much and I can't imagine leaving him alone over the holidays. |
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| Epic. |
[Nov. 8th, 2009|07:04 pm] |
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Whoa the last couple of days have been amazing. Seriously I love my life. :) On Thursday I took my baby sis out to dinner at Olive Garden and then to the mall to buy her a birthday outfit and then later that night my bffs and I all went out to our usual spot on D street and chilled. On Friday I beat Bryan at mini-golf which meant that he lost our bet (that if I won he would have to shave his beard and mustache and if I won I would have to buy him dinner at Taiwan). Owned. :) I ended up beating him by 13 points, serious talent. lol. Saturday was the Razorback game with the padre and Alex's 21st birthday. SO MUCH FUN! For her birthday I wanted to make it special so we went shopping and bought dresses and heels and we all got dressed up for dinner at Sho Gun. After getting super sexy we made it to dinner and I bought Alex her very first drink at the bar. <3 Cosmopolitans! After dinner we met up with Chloe and ate cake at my apartment and then went out on Dickson for some drinks and whatnot. After the bars closed at 2am we went to an after party that some bartenders were throwing and ended up staying out playing beer pong and being silly until after 6am. So epic. Now I'm trying to get into the study mode so I can actually be productive for the first time in 5 days. Yikes.
P.s. I just looked at my calendar and if I go to Italy for Christmas then it is only 39 more days!!! I'm so ready to see him <3 Yay! |
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| I used to be lovedrunk but now I'm hungover... |
[Nov. 2nd, 2009|09:47 pm] |
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TJ told me that he is definitely not going to be home for Christmas. :( It's already been 3 months and I've been counting down to when he would have been coming home (43 days), but now that countdown has been trashed. I won't lie, I'm really upset. I wasn't expecting it, I thought that he was coming home. Now I don't know what is going to happen over Christmas break, if we will see each other or not. I'm trying to stay hopeful, but it's really hard with the instability of the military. </3
The good news is that November is here and there are lots to look forward to. Third Eye Blind, Dane Cook, Thanksgiving break with the besties, Little Rock, etc. :) This month should fly by pretty darn fast... |
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| "I have a feeling that tonight's gunna be a good good night..." |
[Oct. 29th, 2009|02:45 pm] |
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I don't know why I let such stupid and immature people get to me sometimes. I know I am better than them and whatever they say is just out of jealousy and spite. So I've decided that my livejournal shouldn't be private, the people who read this either hate me or love me and I am fine with that. So to those who love me, keep reading and enjoying my life along with me and to those who hate me, keep stalking and be jealous because my life is fabulous!
Now that that is over with, I can get back to the updates. Big news!!! I got glasses last weekend! 8) Turns out, I am farsighted (which is a dominant gene and not too surprising) so I will be using the glasses to read and drive. My glasses are purple and so stinkin cute, I can't wait to wear them in class and look smart lol. That is one thing that people say about me (especially Jessica Austin), I look like I would be unintelligent and ditsy but actually I'm really smart, guess it is the blonde stereotype. I can't wait to send pictures to TJ and see what he thinks!
Besides the accident last night, nothing really is new. I accidentally screwed up my halloween plans this weekend. BOO. (yes that's a lame pun) I told my boss that I wanted to work Friday night and Saturday during the day but I wanted Saturday night off because I thought that the Theta Tau and Zeta costume parties were actually on Halloween. Turns out that the parties are on Friday night! GRRR! Now I'm not sure what we are doing for Halloween, we will probably just end up on Dickson in costumes for Horror on the Hill. :)
I've been running a lot lately... Never thought I would actually enjoy it. Yesterday I finally made it to the HPER and I ran four miles on the indoor track. If only Gary were there, he would be so proud! I would love to go running again today but my legs are sore, I might try to coax a friend into joining me in a walk a Lake Fayetteville though.. gotta get my exercise on in prep for tonight's going out. Yay girls night out on D street!! I LOVE THURSDAYS! |
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| Life is not always guaranteed... |
[Oct. 29th, 2009|02:23 pm] |
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Last night I was hanging out with my girls watching I Didn't Know I Was Pregnant (LOL) and all of a sudden we heard a loud crash and screams coming from outside. We immediately looked out the window and a car had run the red light at the intersection of Duncan and Center st. and hit another car head on. We ran outside as fast as possible and I told the girl to get out of her car because it was smoking and making a strange noise and was leaking fluids everywhere. Neither of the girls of either car were injured seriously even though the airbags went off in both vehicles. I think one had a pretty bad bruise on her arm and the other had a bruise on her head (but they checked and she didn't have a concussion). They were both in shock and crying frantically and wondering what exactly happened. I'm not positive, but I'm pretty sure after talking to the girl who ran the red light, I'm about 90% positive she had been drinking or something that night because she was completely out of it rambling off about how she is going to jail and she kept apologizing to me and everyone. Idk though... This all happened around midnight this morning and we ended up joining Bryan and his roomies on their balcony talking and watching them clean up and tow the cars until about 2am. It all just made me stop and think, tomorrow isn't necessarily guaranteed to us... So be grateful for today and cherish the time you are given! |
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| ::::my weekend in pictures:::: |
[Oct. 26th, 2009|09:07 pm] |
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Our hike to the Glory Hole Oct 24, 2009 and Jenna and I's 2009 pumkin carving project...
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[Oct. 22nd, 2009|01:12 pm] |
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I have to say, I'm so loving my sane college friends right about now. Today after my Cultural Anthropology test a bunch of us were sitting around in the Union laughing about marriage and babies and how everyone is rushing into things WAY too quickly and WAY too early.. When I hang around them I am perfectly content with waiting until I'm 24+ to get married and 28+ to have kids, but when I'm on facebook I see all these people my age that are married and pregnant or that already have kids and I feel like my biological clock is running out. I shouldn't have to feel old at 22, just because some people are rushing there lives doesn't mean I have to rush mine. There is a difference between those people on facebook and my friends and I (and no I am not trying to sound conceited or in favor of feminism when I say this but..), the people like me have ambition and are independently self-reliant, they don't need a husband or family to define them. Everyone else is just jumping on the bandwagon, they can't figure out what they want with their lives so they think the only way they will make something of themselves or be loved is to rush off and get married to their first boyfriend of a couple months or years and have babies asap and then there lives will make sense. WRONG! I want to be somebody other than just a mindless baby-making machine. I want to say that I did something with my intelligence and that I didn't just throw it away because I was young and in love. People on facebook are just plain stupid. Grow up, get an education, get financially stable, be married a couple years AND THEN think about having kids. Don't miss out on your early twenties just because everyone is having babies and it seems to be the only thing that will define you.
Ugh, people make me mad. I shouldn't be 22 and feel old because I'm not married and/or barefoot and pregnant. Sure TJ and I have been together four years, but that doesn't mean we should have to rush and get married just because people around us are getting married after only a few months or a couple years. When the timing is right THEN we will get married. :)
Last night I was studying at the library and TJ got on messenger and we talked for a while about future plans and whatnot. I am super nervous about where his next station is going to be. He is hoping for Japan and I am hoping for Hawaii, either place would be fun and exciting and I would visit him once I am done with my bachelors. Yay for traveling the world! I'm just nervous that he is going to get stuck somewhere like Bahrain or Iraq or Cuba or Diego Garcia where I wouldn't be able to see him and he wouldn't be able to come home for a year, I hate not being able to see him! I'm just praying things will work out in our favor and the last couple of years in the Navy will be alright. I'm staying optimistic... I also talked to TJ about what he is going to do once he is out of the Navy. I found the most perfect profession for him- Pharmacist! He LOVES Chemistry and to be a Pharmacist he would get a Bachelors in Chem and then go on to Pharm school for another couple of years. It would be a lot of school and I would have to support him for a while, but once we were all done and careers were started, we would be very well off and we would be able to have a great life! He loved the idea of being a Pharmacist but hates the idea of all of the schooling.. I understand, but he is still young. If he gets out of the Navy by 23 and then starts school, he will be done by 29/30 making 100K a year. Perfect timing for having children! I'm excited, I think our future is looking bright :)
Midterms are officially over! Funny thing is that I managed to make an 88% on every single one. It's not an A per say, but it's close enough for as much effort as I put into studying for them. I'm just glad it is time to relax... I'm thinking Gnocchi and wine for dinner + Grey's Anatomy. Perfect, perfect, perfect. :D |
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