| Right now, life's perfect. |
[Feb. 2nd, 2010|08:54 pm] |
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I'm watching LOST and TJ is home. Could my life get any better? I think not. :) |
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| Walkin' in a winter wonderland* |
[Jan. 31st, 2010|01:39 pm] |
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TJ comes home today!! Woohoo! I am so beyond words right now, I'm just so happy and excited.I can't wait to see him, there is no greater feeling in the world. :) |
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| "I'll donate up to an inch of hair for fuel" |
[Jan. 30th, 2010|11:34 am] |
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I can't remember the last time I felt this upset. Seriously, this must be how it feels to be clinically depressed. :( TJ was supposed to be home, he was supposed to be snowed in with me, he wasn't supposed to be stuck in Virginia in a blizzard. I swear God must have a sick sense of humor. I haven't seen the love of my life in 6 months and now he is making me wait even longer. Why? Of all weekends, why did the ice storm of 2010 have to hit the one weekend TJ was set to come home? It's so frustrating, not being able to do anything but sit here and wait. It's not fair.
The good part though is that my friends are all being so wonderful, trying to keep my mind off of missing TJ. Thursday night Chloe, Bryan, and I all kept me entertained and then last night Lauren, Alex, Candice, Cassy, and I all hung out- just curled up drinking vino, watching tv, and talking. Trying to keep me from worrying. I love my friends so much, I don't know how I would be able to get through this alone. Right now I'm about to go get Thai food with the girls and then we're going to watch the Miss America pagent tonight. Hopefully, I'm praying so hard, that TJ will be able to get a flight home tomorrow. Cross your fingers** |
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| 3 Days....? |
[Jan. 26th, 2010|06:46 pm] |
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It's almost not fair, the brewing ice storm. It has almost been 6 months since I've seen TJ and now, weather permitting, I might have to wait longer. This week is seemingly creeping by. It felt like the weeks leading up to this one all flew by, but now that there are only 3 days left the passing hours seem like weeks themselves. I am so nervous about the weather, I just don't want him to be stuck in an airport somewhere when he could be home with me and his family. I'm praying hard for no delays, I just want him home already. :( |
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| Nephew <3 |
[Jan. 25th, 2010|04:50 pm] |
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| Happy birthday! |
[Jan. 24th, 2010|07:19 pm] |
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Baby Jonah is here! 7lbs 4oz :) I can't wait to meet him!! |
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| "Oh my gosh, we're like Sex and the City!" -Natasha :) |
[Jan. 24th, 2010|04:12 am] |
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There is no better way to spend a Saturday night than shopping with the girlfriends and then cooking dinner and sitting around gossiping and drinking vino. I love my girls! :) If only I remembered to take pictures, my picture journal is such a failure. Looks like there are only five days left... I feel like I have so much to do before TJ gets here... BUT I"M SO EXCITED!! woohoo!!!!
Things I learned in the last couple of days:
I am a GOD at making quiche
I SUCK at Mariocart 64 (especially at 3am on a Friday night)
Tequila is NOT my friend
ALL clothes were made for girls that are under 5'7"
I would save a lot of money if I didn't have friends but I would be so completely bored and pathetic
Yoga classes at the hyper = BED REST from soreness |
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| Girl on a mission |
[Jan. 19th, 2010|08:38 pm] |
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This morning when I woke up I had an epiphany that cures all worry and doubt about TJ and Japan over the next two years. Why not get a working Visa in Japan and get an international job? With my degree and global work experience I could easily get a corporate or vendor job in NWA when TJ's tour is over. It's the perfect balance between what I want and what TJ wants, a superlative solution. He wants to end the distance by just getting married while I want to be able to live in close proximity for at least a year before we tie the knot. If I can find a job there, we can end the distance without having to rush marriage and I will get closure on the proximity fear. The only thing that poses threat to my scheme is the fact that I don't know Japanese. Rosetta Stone?!
Today I learned two important life lessons:
1. That expensive designer hair-styling products, namely shampoo and conditioner, are well worth the excessive expenditure.
2. That yoga/pilates/ballet/tai chi exercise classes only looking relaxing and effortless. In reality they make for a sweaty and strenuous full body workout that makes you feel so pathetically out of shape afterward it's rediculous. Whoa. |
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| "We forgot to celebrate with fried chicken and grape soda" -Lauren |
[Jan. 19th, 2010|01:07 am] |
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Have you ever had one of those days where nothing really special happened but for some reason you could never rid a smile from your face? That was today. I didn't think today would be that great; when I woke up all of the power in my apartment was off, I still felt a bit sick from the cold I caught over the weekend, and I didn't have any non-expired food for breakfast. But somehow I was in a happy mood, I felt nothing could break my day. I woke up, talked to TJ, ran some errands with Andrew, donated some clothes at the Salvation Army, met Alex at the gym, (got her a hot date at the gym (lol!!)), cooked chicken for dinner, and later met up with Lauren, Candace, and Alex for The Bachelor. Nothing special happened yet today seemed perfect. Maybe it was that I was completely stress free? I don't know but I just wish I felt the way I did today everyday. Not a worry in the world.
I guess it's back to reality now. I have a meeting with the Dean's office in the morning (which I should be totally freaking out about) and then Medical Anthropology and Geology lab. I also have to get books, apply for graduation, talk to someone in the Spanish department, and I have a yoga class at 4:30. Not exactly stress free. :( Hopefully this week will fly by, I can't wait for this weekend with the girls. Thursday = Greys, Friday = Thai food and a movie, Saturday = Scrapbooking and vino. Woot. Tonight we all talked about Spring Break and right now we are thinking about a Bahamas Cruise. I'm so excited. This is my last semester of undergrad so I almost feel obligated to go somewhere as a last hoorah, right? To be continued I guess..
I'm so excited about TJ coming home. Only 11ish more days! The only part that is going to suck is not getting to spend 24/7 with him. STUPID COLLEGE AND 7:30am CLASSES!! :p I'm really happy that he is going to Japan and that I get to visit him soon, I'm so ready for that new adventure. :) Hopefully his transfer will go smoothly and he will love it there as much as he did in Italy. I just wish he could stay longer, say forever? It sucks that he is having to extend for a year, March 2012 is way too far away. His family and I just want him home already. But the last two and a half years have flown by so what is another two? I'm hopeful.
Guess it's finally bed time. My eyes are so heavy I can barely see the screen. Mucho love to all! <3 |
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| "I've Learned" |
[Jan. 15th, 2010|03:11 pm] |
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I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them. I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back. I've learned that it takes years to build up trust and only seconds to destroy it. I've learned that it's not what you have in your life but who you have in your life that counts. I've learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes. After that, you'd better know something.
I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to the best others can do, but to the best you can do. I've learned that it's not what happens to people,It's what they do about it. I've learned that no matter how thin you slide it, there are always two sides. I've learned that you should always have loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you'll see them. I've learned that you can keep going long after you think you can't.
I've learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done When it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences. I've learned that there are people who love you dearly, but just don't know how to show it. I've learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel. I've learned that true friendship continues to grow even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love. I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
I've learned that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that. I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself. I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken, the world doesn't stop for your grief. I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become. I've learned that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.
I've learned that sometimes you have to put the individual ahead of their actions. I've learned that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different. I've learned that no matter the consequences, those who are honest with themselves go farther in life. I've learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you. I've learned that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.
I've learned that writing, as well as talking, can ease emotional pains. I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon. I've learned that it's hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people's feelings and standing up for what you believe. I've learned to love and be loved. I've learned...
Omer B. Washington |
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| The beginning of the end.. |
[Jan. 11th, 2010|02:39 pm] |
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Today was the first day of the last semester of my undergrad! Woot! I don't know how I ended up with an 8:30, but hopefully I will be able to make it this semester. *crosses fingers*and*yawns* It finally took me eleven days but I finally figured out a new years resolution. TAKE MORE PICTURES. :) I'm going to start posting pics on here and make it more of a picture journal than writing journal for time purposes. Stay tuned?
 Crystal and I eating Chinese in Little Rock over Christmas Break  Jenna and I sporting our glasses at Subiaco Academy  Monkland! (aka Subiaco Monestary)  Choppin' down a Christmas tree with Alex and Perry  BEST LIBRARY EVER!  Katie, Alex, and I at the Dallas Stars game. First ever hockey game for me! <3 |
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| SEN(10)R |
[Jan. 4th, 2010|02:14 pm] |
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Happy (belated) New Years! Hooray for 2010! Not only is this the beginning of a new year, but also a new decade. It's exciting to think about what this next decade will bring- marriage, kids, careers, graduations, etc. This is the beginning of a new kind of life filled with unlimited possibilities and adventures. I'm ready for the responsibilities and challenges and I'm excited to see what the future holds. I'm ready for 2010, it's going to be one of the best years yet, I can feel it. :) |
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| Debbie Does Dallas |
[Dec. 30th, 2009|11:41 pm] |
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I'm in the Big D! Holla! :) I'm so excited about New Years! Alex is taking me to a Dallas Stars game tomorrow and then we are hitting up the after event party with our exclusive wrist bands! Whoa so stoked. Guess it's movie time, just thought I would post that I'm alive. I battled the bad Arkansas weather and crappy Oklahoma roads and now I'm back to my home land. Oh yeah :) |
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| Tis the Season |
[Dec. 28th, 2009|09:42 pm] |
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Since I haven't posted in over a week, let's play catch up:
+ Spending time with Ashlie in Bville
+ Watching Avatar in 3D
++ Not having to pay for my ticket to see Avatar in 3D
+ Visiting Andrew and his family in LR
+ Getting a tour of Subiaco Academy
++ Eating dinner with the Abbot at the monastery
+ Buying my first pair of jeans in a size 4
++ Running into Tyler Masters with Ashlie in the Faytown mall
+ Christmas shopping in a deserted Target at 11pm with Jenna
+ Seeing the Grandparents and the Chinese family in LR
+ Starting my marathon training
++ Running my first 5 miles
+ Seeing Zack and TJ's family
+ Finding out TJ is getting stationed in Japan
++ Knowing that TJ will be home for a visit in less than a month
+ Taking pictures under the Mr and Mrs TJ Arnold Library sign
+ First white Christmas
+ Apple Martinis with the BFF
+ Getting new tennis shoes for running
+ Buying the last pair of penguin sleep shorts at Target
+ Getting money to travel to Dallas for New Years with the other bestie
- Not getting to talk to TJ in the last 5 days
- Feeling misunderstood by the parentals and forgotten by the grands
- Witnessing her brother be a complete failure at life
- My computer dying (again) and still not being able to pick up wireless
- Locking my keys in the car for the first time ever
-Not getting to spend Christmas in Italy with TJ
- - Finding out all my favorite dresses were lost
- Ruining my reading chair because of marks left by my suitcase |
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[Dec. 22nd, 2009|02:02 am] |
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JAPAN!!! |
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| tomorrow may hold the answer... *holds breath* |
[Dec. 20th, 2009|11:45 pm] |
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TJ is calling the detailer tomorrow to check on his orders..Tomorrow may be the day we find out what comes next. I'm nervous but very excited and hopeful.
Our emails today:
TJ- "Hey babe Im sorry it got so busy, people these days just freak out over
everything. I am starting to drag down now I am very tired but I know
when I get off work I need to go and clean my house. I love you babe and
I miss you so much right now. Wish me luck with the detailer tomorrow. I
gotta say this so don't get mad. I want Diego garcia so I can save a lot
of money im talking like 40,000(struss made that) I want to go to japan
to see other cultures. But I would go to washington to be nearer to you
in a heart beat. I love you babe"
Me- "i won't be able to tell you this in person over the phone so i'm going to write it because this hurts to even think about let alone say. ultimately i want you to be selfish with your decision and pick the choice that will make you the happiest. if that means that you are stuck on an island away from me for a year then i want you to choose diego. if you have the choice to pick japan or georgia or washington then pick japan because that would make you the happiest. make the money, see the world, live up your young 20's because when you get out and come home we are going to settle down and start a family and be happy together. you know what choice i would be happiest with, but right now it's not about me, this is your life and your decision. live it up. i love you very much and you know i will be here waiting for you no matter what you choose. just go with your heart <3"
TJ- "Well babe I get paid regardless, so I could care less about diego. I
like sushi but not halfway around the world great. I would rather come
home have you calm down my behavior. I kinda need you to "settle" me
down. I love you babe and you are priceless to me. I would rather not go
to any of those places and be with you. I love you babe and I cant wait
for your phone call."
Me- "i just want you to be happy, when you are happy then so am i. i'm glad though that you want to be close to me, i love you very much and i miss not being able to see you more. i can't wait to see where you get stationed next. i'm praying hard that wherever it is it will be helpful to our relationship. i just know that we've made it this far and we are destined to make it the whole way. i love you very much and i can't wait to call you after work. kisses*"
I know that God will provide for us and everything will turn out alright no matter where he ends up. We've made it this far and are still very much in love despite the odds. I know that no amount of time or space can separate what we have. We're ready for anything. <3 |
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| Sad Christmas |
[Dec. 18th, 2009|12:59 am] |
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Well my Christmas dreams are officially crushed. My plans for a happy holiday have been torched with the onset of a certain someone prying into business that wasn't theirs. Thanks. TJ was going to buy me a puppy this year for my Christmas present. I was so excited and it was helping to keep my mind off the fact that I wasn't spending the holidays with my love. I don't remember the last time I was so excited about getting something, like a little kid anxiously awaiting Christmas morning. I had the puppy all picked out, a little boy Australian Shephard, I was going to name him Aussie. He was going to keep me company and protect me while TJ was away and help me train for the marathon in April. I was just so happy... Ugh. I just feel stuck in my situation. I'm not unhappy necessarily, I love my friends and I love college life, but I'm itching for the next step. To be out on my own with new responsibilities and challenges. I saw a puppy as subduing this need, it was a perfect idea. I guess it is unpractical with where I live and the life I lead, it just sucks. I just figured a dog would help the next 5-6 months without TJ pan out a little easier. Guess I'm just stuck being stuck... |
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| All I want for Christmas is YOU :( |
[Dec. 16th, 2009|01:54 pm] |
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Today should have been the day I left for Italy to spend the holidays with TJ. Unfortunately money issues stood in love's way and now we're stuck worlds apart for yet another Christmas and New Years. As much as I would have loved to have been there, I know this is the best. We need to start saving money for our future together. It just really hurts, I miss him so much and I had my hopes set on seeing him over the break. All of my countdowns have been tossed and now I have to wait another 6 months to see him. I can do it, I just wish it didn't have to play out like this. I just miss him, he is my best friend and soul mate. No one understands how much it hurts..
I feel so horrible about what is going on with TJ. Not only is he is having to spend the holidays apart from his family again, he is also having to watch all of his friends leave Italy for their next commands while he is stuck there dealing with security clearance issues. I have been selfish complaining about not being able to see him, but it's not easy on him and I haven't even thought about how he feels. I can't imagine what he is going through, I just wish I could have been there to help him through this time. It could have been easier..
I am excited about the break, even if it is spent in Arkansas. I'm actually hoping to be able to spend New Years in Dallas with some friends so that could be interesting. :) I just need to get my mind off things and get away. Just anything to keep my mind off of the distance.
Yesterday marked the ending of my semester. Thank God it's over! No more fall semesters for me ever again! Wow that seems so strange to say or think about. I can't believe I'm so close to the end. The only thing standing in the way of me and that graduation gown is Spanish. I'm ready for it, bring it on. :p To celebrate the end of the year my friends and I went to go see the Princess and the Frog. Yes, I'm 22 going on 5. The movie was actually really good, I think I laughed harder than anyone in the entire theater. After that our group split up and Crystal and I went to Bueno for our last Bueno adventure of the year. I can't believe she is leaving for Ireland next semester, I'm so jealous! I told her she had better fall in love with a hot Irish man and bring him back. <3 Well I guess it's time to pack and clean. I think I'm going to spend a few days in the other 'ville with the sister and fam. J and I have some serious plotting to do, a surprise is coming.. !!! |
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| Distance and Time- Alicia Keys |
[Dec. 13th, 2009|11:09 pm] |
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You are always on my mind
all I do is count the days
where are you now?
I know I never let you down
I will never go away
I really wish that you'd stay but what can we do
all the days that you've been gone I dreamed about you
and I anticipate the day that you will come home, home, home
No matter how far you are
no matter how long it takes him
through distance and time
I'll be waiting
and if you have to walk a million miles
I'll wait a million days to see you smile
distance and time, I'll be waiting
distance and time, I'll be waiting
will you take a train, to meet me where I am
are you on your way?
I will never do anything to hurt you
I'll never live without you
I really wish that you would stay but what can we do
All the days that you've been gone I dreamed about you
and I anticipate the day that you will come home, home, home
no matter how far you are
no matter how long it takes him
distance and time,I'll be waiting
And if you have to walk a million miles
I'll wait a million days to see you smile
distance and time
I'll be waiting |
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| "We're going to get through this like we always do.." |
[Dec. 12th, 2009|12:49 pm] |
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On my way to my final this morning I stopped by the Parking Spot to get a sandwich, bluebook, and expresso.. When the guy in front of me asks the cashier how he was he looked at him and said, "that question is irrelevant to this transaction". LMAO! That made my day.
I'm feeling better.. only one final left.. party's tonight.. and I'm stoked! Last night I finally ate something for the first time in two days. Bryan, Alex, and I all went to Taiwan! Oh memories of Ariel! It was bueno but not the best idea after recovering from a stomach bug, make a note of that. Afterward we kidnapped Bryan and took him to Wal-Mart to shop for party supplies. Poor guy, we went in to get pizza, forks, and cups and we didn't leave for a couple hours. He didn't understand the concept of shopping, aimlessly looking at things we have no intentions of buying. lol. Right now I just got done with my Anthropological Theory final and I'm exhausted. ----> time out <------
So the other day I was walking to class when I ran into a friend and started blabbing about life and whatnot... I ended up being 5ish minutes late to class and I thought, no big deal the teacher was only covering the format of the final exam and I already knew what it was going to be like. The next day I went in to take a makeup exam and the teacher hands me a slip of paper with 10 indentifications on it and said to write 10 essays over the topics. I had prepared for the test like the normal exams- prepared 4 long essays and studied the material for a MC part. I was shocked when I got the promt and I asked her if she had covered what the makeup exams were going to be like in class. She said she had in the first 5 minutes of the last class! grrr. So I took the test and B.S.ed my way through all ten essays (even added an eleventh just for good measure) and handed it in with my head. held. (not so) high. I was so bummed I hadn't prepared for that test, I went on complaining to Alex and Bryan about how I was hoping for a C and I was pissed at myself for not double checking the format after class. BUT today before the final the teacher handed back the exams and I made a 94.... WHAT KIND OF LUC K IS THAT?!
----->time in<------ So I'm thinking about taking a nap since I only got about 4 hours of decent sleep. Maybe like an hour? Alex wants me to go with her to chop down a tree so she can take it back to Texas with her (since everyone knows they don't have trees in Texas lol). She wants to go to an actual tree farm but I'm thinking we should borrow some of our dude friends from Farmhouse and we head out to our backyard, aka the Ozark mountains, to chop one down Paul Bunyan style. :) After that we have to start decorating for our party and make the lasagna and pizza and cupcakes. Around 6 I have to meet up with Bryan to go hide the clues for the riddle scavenger hunt... and then the party starts when I get back. Got my wine in tow and I'm ready to go... :p |
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